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[raced_god]

It's recently come to my attention that I've been behaving just a little bit gay.

Okay, a lot gay.

He came over Wednesday night because we really needed to talk. Some things got said and we ended up...well, hooking up. Again. Only sober this time. And it was weird. Nice, I guess. But weird. I still really don't know what to think about it.

Obviously I care about him. A lot. But I'm not really sure in what way I care about him...or how I feel about him at all, really. Other than the fact that I need him to stop being so damn depressed all the time. I know that all I've really done is create a massive dramabomb with the potential to send everything on a one-way trip straight to hell. I mean, Jesus. He's married, he's got two kids, and he's not even human. Ugh. And I still can't shake this fucking crush on Samus, what the heck.

This is so irresponsible but for some reason I really don't care anymore. Knowing him, he'll think too much about it and freak out and call it quits soon anyway...whatever "it" is...and we can get on with our lives.

I guess I'll figure it out soon enough.
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What do we think about Porky's "benevolently invite the teachers to the Tower for a lovely black-tie affair"?

Sounds like bullshit to me. But if you guys have decided to go then I'm in too. One one hand, I am not excited in the least to go back to that hellhole...but on the other it could be a chance to learn more, and we're good to have around in case he tries to pull something.

I don't know. What do you three think?

We should fill Geno in about the whole thing. I think we can trust him and he'd be able to help us out. All he needs is the information.

And don't think I haven't forgotten about our relatively-celebratory bar outing. I wanna see you drunk, Otacon.
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Just checking in. How are you feeling?
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Care to tell me what you were doing in Ms. Aran's room last night? And did it, perchance, have anything to do with the fireworks?

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[Private]

[blondprodigy.livejournal.com]

You could tell, huh?

It's... really stupid. I shouldn't have done it, I know! But I dared Lucas to wear a dress and he said he'd only do it if I ended up stealing Ms. Aran's, er, underwear. And the fireworks were as a distraction because I couldn't live it down if I got caught but it looks like I was anyway and I know I'm in big trouble now but please don't let her kill me.

Re: [Private]

[raced_god]

Honestly, Jeff, not many ninjas have blonde hair and glasses.

This is the second time I'm going to cover for you but I hope you know you're in trouble with me. Which...is pretty bad but probably preferable to being in trouble with Ms. Aran.

What were you thinking?!

Re: [Private]

[blondprodigy.livejournal.com]

I... understand. Please don't expel me ...but then if you did maybe I wouldn't have to face Ms. Aran ever again


I wasn't thinking! It was really stupid, I know! I think I only took the dare up because I was hoping to see her inventions, but even that's no excuse...

Re: [Private]

[raced_god]

I'm not going to expel you. She won't either.

Look, she needs to have a talk with you anyway. I'm pretty sure she figured it out on her own, but I'll see what I can do.

SO PRIVATE IT'S NOT ONE BIT AMUSING

[leadthemalong.livejournal.com]

I feel...fine. I know you're mad over the idea that one of the students got into the fireworks but...didn't it all seem so...timed?

...Thanks for the...CD...I know I shouldn't have came over for it...but in the end...why do I find myself okay with everything? ...Erm I guess I'm not really talking about music right now...

What scares me is I'm not really panicked to the point of grief about whatever happens...as horrible as it may seem. What we did...it's not like whatever happens in the future would have been any better either way.

Sorry for the awkward lengthy reply but I don't want to leave you worried about me.

Re: SO PRIVATE IT'S NOT ONE BIT AMUSING

[raced_god]

I uh...put two and two together about the fireworks. Let's just say that Aran and I have it under control.

Oh gawd, is this going to turn into a code word or something? I can see it now. Hey, Ollie, why don't you come over and pick up some CDs, if you know what I mean!

I'm just messing with you. Don't apologize, okay? No use wallowing in guilt.

And uh...I know this is obvious but you know me and my natural paranoia...this doesn't need to get out. To anyone. Ever. :D

I'll swing by your office later to say hi.

And pick up some CDs.

Re: SO PRIVATE IT'S NOT ONE BIT AMUSING

[leadthemalong.livejournal.com]

I...I don't want to worry anyone anymore. If I just feel guilty over something I can't change, it's just going to give everything away. I've been trying to compare y problems to ones much worse. Hell, if I can keep my cool in a life-or-death situation I can pull through! I wouldn't tell anyone. You can always trust me.

[Private to Falcon]

[icequeen-aran.livejournal.com]

I've been meaning to talk with Geno about that but there's one more crucial piece of information I need to share with someone before that. One last little piece of the puzzle.

Ugh... ... ........ this is going to be so awkward... I'd better get it done quickly before things get too... awkward....

I... I don't know. I won't go back into that fucking tower without good reason, but you know what they say, keep your friends close, but your enemies closer... As it stands, not good enough of a reason for me just yet. Might change after we talk with Geno...

[Private to Falcon, Snake, Samus]

[animu-nerd.livejournal.com]

I’m troubled by this man.

Snake and I have only known each other for a few years, but I’ve helped him fight a lot of battles, and seen my share of diabolical men. Him...I’ve always believed that there was some amount of good and tragedy in each person, but...he’s so far into hatred that I don’t know if he’ll even be able to swim out of the grave he’d dug for himself.

I will only be attending if all of you go I’ve never worn a black suit, ehh...that would be embarrassing.. I’m not used to the idea of being on the frontline, there is some relative comfort being in the shadows for me. Still, I’m willing to risk it, if only because what you three are doing. Dr. Andonuts...I can’t help but feel a spark of kinship with him. I was once hired to work on a weapon of war, against my knowledge. Him...he knows exactly what he’s working on, but he has no choice, no voice. Doing this, while knowing that his captors can look at his son every single day...no man should be subjected to that kind of pain.

There are times when I do doubt myself. But then, I can’t help but think back to the words of a great man: You have enemies? Good. That means you've stood up for something, sometime in your life.

Re: [Private to Falcon, Snake, Samus]

[raced_god]

You and me both, Otacon. I can only hope his sick fantasy that he's built for himself will inevitably come crashing down on top of him.

And if the four of us can move speed up the inevitable, so much the better.

I think that's the general consensus...it's the fearsome foursome or none of us go at all. Honestly, do I look like someone who gets dressed up? Don't worry about being on the front line.You make it sound like a battlefield, heh. We've got your back.

Dr. Andonuts...I've gotten pretty attached to his son since I've been here. Smart kid. It pisses me off that he got dragged into this. You couldn't be more right about this whole thing.

You sure like proverbs, don't you.

Re: [Private to Falcon]

[raced_god]

All right, as long as we don't keep him in the dark anymore. I got a little worried at the...readiness with which he accepted Porky's invitation.

It's about Jeff, right?

I talked to him a little bit about it. He said it was a dare. Kids will be kids, I guess. He didn't mean any harm and he's really sorry about it...and he knows he was a complete idiot. So don't go too hard on him.

We'll see what happens then.